Oh and By the Way...

I adopted my friend Andrew Brouwer as my SL big brother. We've gotten real close recently and he's been there to take care of me and check up on me when I feel lonely. He's a sweet, amazing guy who loves his boyfriend Matthew very much and I hope they will always be happy together. Love you bro! :)

Esmie xXx

Oh My, It's been Ages

Been ages since my last post. Time flies, eh? SL is down for its weekly 'fuck-update', but hopefully it'll be a good set of fixes. Although I'm rather pissed off at the removal of Ratings from profiles. Just as mine were getting good... 17 for Behaviour, 17 for Appearance and 2 for Building, 19 given. Damn, I didn't even break the 20 mark. Ah well, everyone knows what I'm like... They don't need numbers to tell them, and neither do I. Shame to have wasted all that money. Why don't they refund all the Linden Dollars spent on ratings? That would be fair ;)

I'm in an odd situation with Upo at the moment. His acting career in SL has exploded... He's starred in a movie and now has meetings with RL directors and so on. He's always so busy, he doesn't have much time for me anymore. I understand it totally, but I'm worried that maybe he isn't having fun all the time... and there's no reason to be in SL unless you're having fun. We had a talk about him, me and us and I decided that I'd stick with him. Even if he only sees me for ten minutes a week, its worth being there, waiting for him.

Everyone has always said that Upo and I make an amazing couple, and I always agreed with them. I don't know if he still needs me or even wants me, but I'm not giving him up unless he asks for it. Hopefully me sticking with him makes his Second Life richer, if it doesn't, then I can accept that. Whatever makes him happy. But he is sooo worth hanging on to. Nobody could understand how being with him makes me feel.

Esmie xXx

2 Days

Havent been in-world for about 2 days now.. Might have something to do with the new Xbox360 my creator owns. I'll be back tonight though, so you guys don't have to be missing me much longer. Some things make me laugh, like people inviting you to their house to discuss something, forgetting to un-ban you, then failing to remember they need to send you a teleport to get you there. Then, sending you a message saying 'so you say you don't run away yet do not have the courage to contact me when you are in world??', when I haven't actually been in world since the last time we spoke. Everyone makes mistakes, I guess. It's a long story behind that one and I'm not repeating it here. So, ask me in world or just imagine what it could be. :)

Esmie xXx

Colossus

Found these old pictures today. Its me as a neko and Elf Prince Rayu visiting the Colossus in the Elven land of Shivar, 19th December 2006. Colossal really is the only word to describe it.





Esmie xXx

Happy Easter

I wish every single one of you a very happy Easter, whether you celebrate it or not. Dagon's easter egg hunt today was interesting... very difficult, I only found 4 out of 15 before getting tired and giving up. Damn... I miss Upo so much, but hopefully I'll see him tomorrow. I understand he needs time to think about SL, and I'm glad he has this break over the weekend to sort it out in his head.

Its been odd for me recently, but also extremely fun and exciting, so I'm not complaining. Two of my friends have come back from a long time away, Zach and Elijah. Zach is back for a while, spending loads of money and generally brightening the place up with his coarse jokes and hunky body. Elijah only popped in for a little while, but I was so happy to see him. I missed him so much. He's been away at his new job, working seven days a week, I hadn't seen him for a month. So happy he's got things working in RL, and I hope he will be seeing us in SL regularly when he can.

I love all my friends in SL, every last one of them. Some more than others maybe, but love is love and they have all given me so much in their friendship, I want to do everything I can to return that.


Esmie xXx

(PS. I got more eggs in SL than my creator did in RL. Crazy.)

Back.. although I wasn't really away much.

I managed to get in to SL over the weekend, so it wasn't as bad as it could have been. SL is the oddest place in existance. My gay friend Andrew, who I have known for a long time, has fallen in love with the head of beach security, Jflo... who is a woman. I don't know how the hell this happened, but I wish them the best of luck, because they are two amazing people and I actually think it might work. I guess you fall in love with a person's spirit and personality rather than their body, so love really has no limits that can be defined by your sexuality.

Boots Gay Beach was really screwed up yesterday. Teleports not working, attachments not attaching.. and everywhere else was fine. So, the sim was restarted and a group of us fled to the nearest island in Palm Beach to escape being logged off. Watching the sim disappear and then reappear a few minutes later has to be one of the most amazing things you will ever see in SL.



The view from the island when the beach vanished.




The view when it came back.

Esmie xXx