Friday, 30 November 2007

Happy Rezday Adian!

Yay Adian :D

Hope you had a good year buddy and I hope the rest of them are equally awesome.

I also really hope you like the pic ;)

Adian on his Rezday


Esmie xXx

dirt update

So far, we have managed to create a new group, simply called 'dirt' and have put out a notice in the old 'dirt magazine' group asking people to switch. We'll be deleting the old group soon, and kicking out anyone who hasn't left. Of course, you don't have to have been in the old group to be in the new one! Just search for 'dirt' in groups, its open enrollment so feel free to become a member. The more, the merrier as they say.

We've worked out that Osayo will be doing HTML and layout things for the blog, I'll be designing images and things like that. Already had a couple of people say they want to help out with writing - if you do, IM me. I'll ask you to write a short note reviewing your favourite place/store/outfit, so get thinking and if its good you will most likely get a place on our team :)

Things are going steadily and I doubt I will be able to do much work on dirt until after next week (my exams), but once I start, dirt will be kicked into gear and things will really start to get awesome.

Esmie xXx

Thursday, 29 November 2007

Karl Has a Habit of Pissing Me Off...

He sends me a snapshot and this is the IM convo that ensued.

[13:32] Karl Dorance: my new skin
[13:32] Esmiel Posthorn: :O i didnt see it earlier, you were all grey
[13:32] Karl Dorance: aww
[13:32] Esmiel Posthorn: dammit you SOB thats MY skin
[13:32] Karl Dorance: ROFL
[13:32] Karl Dorance: but I got pubes :P
[13:32] Esmiel Posthorn: fucks sake.. first Dagon, now you
[13:33] Esmiel Posthorn: looks very hot tho :)
[13:33] Karl Dorance: hehe thanks
[13:34] Karl Dorance: looks like your gonna have to get a new skin now
[13:34] Karl Dorance: lol
[13:34] Esmiel Posthorn: fuck, you're right
[13:34] Esmiel Posthorn: lol
[13:34] Karl Dorance: ROFL
[13:35] Esmiel Posthorn: dammit you buncha assholes
[13:35] Esmiel Posthorn sighs
[13:38] Karl Dorance: hahah
[13:39] Karl Dorance: now now no need to be all sulky, come to daddy, lemme make you feel better *wink*
[13:39] Esmiel Posthorn: thats just sick
[13:39] Karl Dorance: ROFL

I love Karl, really... if it wasn't for him I'd have nobody to insult.

Esmie xXx

Demons and Angels

I've been a dark angel before but never a full-on demon. Today that changed and I grew some big-assed horns, a pointy tail and some freakishly evil wings. I had just finished fitting my new parts when Nicholai dropped in. Nicho has always been the lighter, purer side of the partnership (at least he pretends to be :P) and his angel gear is looking a little old, so we went off to Material Squirrel (after some extremely hot and naughty fun :P) to find him new wings and a sparkly halo. I took us to Apollo, an old favourite of ours, possibly the greatest, most romantic sim in SL. I hope to one day own a place like this...

We snuggled down in the tallest tower and discussed various things, mainly Gor - Nicholai's memories of it and how he feels as if I am his Master and he is my slave - which he loves the idea of, I can tell. I don't, although having him as a slave would not be a bad thing, as after the chat he demonstrated to me what made him the best male slave in all of Gor... daaaamn it was good. But no freaking way am I ever going Gorean, I would sooner be eaten by a 'larl' or something.


Esmie xXx

Monday, 26 November 2007

Question: Why do gay men use ribbed condoms?

Of course, not all of them do, but thats not the point of this joke, just wait until the punchline. First tho, I wanna talk about safe sex in SL. I notice none of us have any STDs. We all have perfect bodies and organs and things. SL is odd in that way, in that it tries to be so real in some ways and yet is total fantasy in others. I've had maybe ten sexual partners in SL and never onced used a condom *gasp*. If I had said 'RL' there, you might think I was some kinda skanky disease-ridden slut. (Actually I have only had one partner in RL and I don't plan on having any others...).

But in SL, 10 guys in a year? Sounds like a tiny number. But when you consider that for about 8 months of that year I have been in full time relationships it makes sense. But hang on a minute Esmie - if you have a strong, loving relationship of 3 years in RL then why do you need one in SL? Honestly I cant answer that, I just feel like I have a big hole inside of me when I don't have anyone to share this SL with. It may sound as if my RL relationship is not enough for me - it is, more than I could possibly ever hope for - but for some reason, when I came into SL, I felt like I needed someone else to share it with me.

Maybe its just a typical Pisces thing.

Oh crap I had better go get on with my lab book write-up - it's due in today and I also have to get to the bank and wait in for some mail (that might not come) and shower and have lunch and maybe attend an optional tutorial class at uni. Busy day, but luckily, the last one for the week, seeing as I am now in Study week and will be revising hard until the weekend. Somehow I dont quite believe that, but we'll see...

Answer: Traction in the mud.

Eeeeeeeew!!! I'm outta here...

Esmie xXx

Saturday, 24 November 2007

Maybe we should call it 'ash' now?

Ok well here's the news:

Chester has decided to leave his post at dirt magazine to pursue his career as a builder for CNDG.

He's been stressing over the mag and he really enjoys building alot more, so I hope he is happier now and there are no hard feelings. I was a bit upset at first when I read the note, but I am also kinda relieved - I wouldn't want to work with him if he wasn't enjoying himself, and now he is, and we all still love him so its all good in the end. To be honest, I was struggling to meet the deadlines for this month, dunno about Os, but it was a strain and a burden at times.

So.. what to do about dirt?

With the founder/creator, page and layout designer and chief editor gone, we were in a bit of a mess. Basically I saw three options;

1 - Let dirt die.

2 - Assemble a new team and return next year, continuing as an in-world magazine.

3 - Develop it into a blog, jointly written by Osayo and myself, with articles, reviews and all the usual goodness of dirt, combined with some fresh new talent on the writing and modelling front.

We plumped, as you might have expected/be very glad to hear, for option number 3. I am in the process of setting up the new blog using Blogger and we will be looking at maybe 4 or 5 writers in total, one review or article a fortnight each (or something, nothing has been decided yet). As always, dirt will continue to be un-affiliated with any in-world store, and all products we feature will be because we like them and want to show off.

Osayo's Travel and my Advice columns/features will continue and will be expanded - it is possible to fit much more onto a webpage than into the page of a magazine in-world. So, dirt will be bigger, better and easier to access, no need to ask one of us for a copy or find a vendor - just click the link that will soon be appearing in the Links section (oddly enough).

As for hiring new talent - well, we can't offer you much in the way of pay - if/how we will sell ad space on the blog is yet to be resolved - but you will be doing something you (hopefully) love and working with fun, exciting and sexy people. Just IM me if you are interested in writing or modelling for the blog - details are to be finalised but its always nice to have a list of hopeful applicants handy :)

Dirt issue #3 - the Sexxx issue - will not be released in SL. However, before you lynch us all, you will be pleased to know that our work for that issue will form the basis of our first posts on the blog so you will still get the best bits.

I will of course keep you updated on our progress and will be letting you know when the blog is opened and ready.

Esmie xXx

Far Away

Far Away

all we have to do
is look far away
to discover what
is closest to our hearts

New stuff on the sidebar

Look right and you will see a few new things. At the top is a little poll I am running - vote for what is your honest opinion - the question will change every week and I will be discussing the outcome (if there is one).

I also put a little slideshow of my Flickr pics on there, so you can see if I've uploaded new ones easily. Its a bit small, but its what you do with it that counts, so I hope you'll all put it to good use and watch the slideshow all day every day :)

I also changed my 'About Me' block to something a little more succinct and exciting. Well not really exciting... just... it was time to change, ok?! *lol*

I also have some news coming up soon about a few things, mainly concerning dirt. The news is not all good I am afraid, but thats life. I'll let you know as soon as things are sorted and I have some facts to put on here.

Esmie xXx

Thursday, 22 November 2007


Where have I been since monday? Feels like weeks since I posted on here. It also feels like weeks since I uploaded any pics to Flickr or visited Boots' Beach even. Its so wierd how time in SL or anything related to SL goes by so quickly. You can meet someone, fall in love with them and move into their place in about 3 days (or less) in SL, whereas it would take months to do in RL.

Back to the point. I've been busy. Busy in SL and RL.

In SL, now that we have the Safe Harbour Sandbox, I've been building and spending more time with my Nicho now that he is online building alot of the time too. It doesn't leave much room for anything else - except shopping and RP of course :P

In RL, its my last week of classes and I have several class tests and pieces of coursework to be done this week - in fact I have a class test - Maths - in about 3 hours (1.20pm) and another the same time tomorrow - Electronics - which is gonna be hell. But, I chose Physics as my degree and I gotta put up with whatever they throw at me - so bring it on!

Essentially, the whole of next week I have no classes, its called 'Revision Week' where we're sposed to spend all day every day studying for final term exams the week after. I can't remember spending more than about 6 hours out of that week studying in the last 2 years, but this time, things have to change! 3rd year is alot harder than previous ones and I need to help myself as much as I can.

So yeah... thats why I haven't been around much in SL, or posting on here as often as I usually would. Once the term is over in two and a bit weeks' time, I have a month's holiday for christmas so expect me here all day every day :P

Esmie xXx

Monday, 19 November 2007

My First Rezday

Haa-ppy Rezday to meee,
Haa-ppyyy Rezday to meeee,
Happy Rezday dear Eeeesmiiii-eeeeelllllll,
Happy Rezdaaaay toooo meeeeee!

A whole year. There have been ups, there have been downs. Sad moments and happy moments. Pain, loss and conflict, but also peace, love and happiness. I'm glad to say the latter far outweigh the former, and to be honest, this has been one of the best years of my life. SL has taught me so much about myself and RL too, I can't begin to describe what this place has come to mean to me.

Thank you to all my friends who have stuck by me - especially those I have known since my first few days - Nicholai *kisses*, Karl *pounces* and Gabe *smooches* - and I hope I haven't been a jerk to anyone, at all. If I have, let me know and I will be your personal slave for the next year to make it up to you. Promise :)

I love you all - you make my SL worth living - and I look forward to sharing many more rezdays with you guys!

Esmie xXx

Sunday, 18 November 2007

Flickr Update and Other Stuff

I've put 9 snaps into my Flickr account so far, and created the Arabian set for the 5 images I took during our trip to 1001 Nights. I will soon be uploading pics of our rezday party on saturday, so look forward to those later on ;)

It was awesome, and I got some lovely gifts. Thanks a whole load to everyone who came, you make my SL worth living and I love you all! There might be more excitement happening today as well, we'll see. I just realised... I'm 364 days old. Luckily avatars age like fine wine :)

Nicholai's present was ummm.. interesting and just as sexy as you would expect from the little minx :P

Society Islands has now become Safe Harbour Sandbox - just a big, empty desert inhabited by a few clustered builds in one corner and some construction vehicles on the other side. We have four void sims now, just open water, with a few interesting little builds scattered amongst them. One will be used as terraforming practice, which I can't wait to start on. We picked an island in the corner of the Maupiti sim as a spot for our house, with unbroken sea views on two sides. I kinda like the lil shack that Mak put on the island, but Nicho won't have it and we're gonna be replacing it with our awesome house, which will require some terraforming to the island.

Unfortunately, this spot is in a corner far from the sim boundary with one of the sailable void sims, which means threading my jetski or powerboat through the island chain everytime we wanna go out. Could just TP I spose *lol* :)

I'll get some snaps of the finished island as soon as it is done.

Esmie xXx

Saturday, 17 November 2007

Esmiel On Flickr

Yay I got myself a Flickr account. Whenever I update it with pics I'll post on here, and in future, pics to go with my posts will be on Flickr. I just prefer the uploading on that site, it pixellates the image alot less and also allows you to view and edit them alot easier. So yay!

Here is the link to my page.

Esmie xXx

More Windlight Hotness.

Arabian themed sims aren't exactly plentiful. Amazingly beautiful ones are rarer still.

1001 Nights is just such a sim. Its RP, but you can go as an observer and just wander around the immaculately constructed city and surroundings. It really is a work of art. I took these pics today while Nicho and I went for a bit of our own Arabian Master/Harem boy RP action. Check these pics out:

Looking across the turrets and domes of the city - the snap doesn't show how gloriously shiny they are in-world...

We didn't actually go down this tunnel, but my panning camera and awesome eye for a great scene caught this and I just had to snap it. There is an extensive cave and tunnel network under the city.

The boat is glorious, especially with the reflections on the water. Simply stunning.

I love this shot, just a spur of the moment thing. The sky is set to 'Desert Sunset' in case you were wondering...

Then we tried out our new pose balls, Soul Intentions (from Bits and Bobs). The sim lets you rez objects there, but has auto return so they will come back to you in your Lost and Found after only a few seconds of getting off them... This is the point where the snaps get too explicit for the blog and I have to stop. Be assured that it involved a young, handsome Arabian Master 'claiming' his new Harem boy (Who also happens to be a genie), by stealing his innocence and then getting all messy...

Oh yes, and tomorrow is my Rezday party - a joint one with Gabe (he is only one day younger than me). My actual rezday isn't until the 19th, but we're having it tomorrow cos its just easier for everyone. Chester has apparently been arranging it all and I have no idea what to expect. Feel free to IM me throughout the day if you want a TP to the party. I will also be accepting presents *lol* hope to see you there (wherever it is).

Esmie xXx

[I am definitely gonna be creating a Flickr account soon, cos the quality of the Blogger uploads is really getting to me... I'll keep you posted]

Thursday, 15 November 2007

Resurrected: Windlight. Almost as good as that time Jesus did it.


Just to demonstrate the power of Windlight, with no post-processing, no editing to the sky in-world - except changing the time of day - I created this little picture. Expect more insanely beautiful snaps over the next couple of days on this blog :)

The lighting, shading, water effects are almost perfect. It makes any scene in SL so much warmer, more real and intense, beyond anything I've previously experienced... check it out...

My passion for photography in SL just grew by about 1,000,000%...

Esmie xXx

Tuesday, 13 November 2007

Why I hate leaving SL for dull RL stuff.

Its never easy to log out of SL and go get on with your shitty RL. But it's especially hard when you're with a bunch of the funniest, cutest guys you know.

Osayo, Gabe, Chester, Me, Broder, Jaho and Hoaghes. Love them all. You can see why I was reluctant to leave...

As for the mouse tail, ears and purple hair - I made myself up a little alternative avatar for a bit of fun. This is what happens when I get bored...

Off to classes now, bye!

Esmie xXx

Sunday, 11 November 2007

RenderGlow combined with High-Res Snapshots.

Its a beautiful thing, that RenderGlow. If you haven't tried it already I urge you to do so. If you've forgotten how to activate it -

Use ctrl-alt-D to bring up the Client and Server menus.

Go Client > Debug Settings

Find RenderGlow in the list (or type it in) and set it to TRUE.

You can turn it off again by setting it to FALSE.

I went for a quick browse around the stores in the Block, one of, if not my absolute, favourite shopping districts in all of SL. I turned on the good old RenderGlow to see how it would affect the urban environment. I took a couple of high res snaps so you can see for yourselves :)


Unfortunately, Blogger pixellates the shit out of them, reducing the quality loads. I might make myself a Flickr account soon so I can share them in their purest, highest quality form..

Esmie xXx

Esmiel Investimagates.

I'm still ill, but I have given up whining and bitching about it, because I reckon you're all sick of it and it doesn't seem to be curing me *lol* so this is the last you're gonna hear about that. The blog has been pretty much all RL stuff over the last few days which is kinda silly cos this is an SL blog! Apparently! So, lets think of some SL stuff to chuck in here.

Aha! CSI:NY. The stupid T.V. show had Second Life in one of its programs and then they invaded SL with dozens of identical sims. Nicholai and I went along (he's a big fan of the show - you can probably guess that I am not) a few weeks ago and here is my 'review'.

It was a warm, sunny day when the SL police department received a tip-off. Apparently some corporations from outside of town had muscled their way into our quiet, thriving community. They were buying up vast tracts of land and, it was rumoured, the directors enjoyed killing like a sport - killing people, hunting them down and making horrid snuff movies or something.

When I first arrived at their headquarters with my partner Nicholai, we were surrounded by suits who demanded us to install things and implant a new 'client' into our heads. We retreated for a moment, and I was able to catch a glimpse of the corporation's name - CSI:NY. Clearly this was some sick operation, and we had to get deeper. So we decided to go undercover in order to infiltrate their web of lies and murder. We accepted the new client and donned our CSI:NY badges, hoping they would fool the suits. The disguise worked, and we were in.

What we didn't expect was the sheer number of people working with this organisation. It was a massive operation, and it seemed like many of the CSI followers had been hypnotised or tricked, blindly following the commands of their shadowy superiors. Once the CSI client was installed, we immediately felt the differences. I felt sluggish and incomplete, unable to sort the change in my pockets or to work my earpiece. Nicholai liked the modern, clean feel of the client, but I knew something was terribly wrong.

Once we were inside, we discovered the true nature of this corporation. Patrons and CSI followers were the same people - the customers were being used to carry out the whims of the managers and directors - and blood sport was their reward. Looking at the site map, Nicholai and I knew this thing was huge, and it needed to be blown wide open.

We came across the body of a young, winged man who had been killed for fun by the directors - target practice I imagine, like a clay pigeon - now the CSI followers were involved in some kind of puzzle or game that involved the collecting of clues and evidence. They were blind to the fact a poor man had been murdered and they were now putting their hands all over his body...

All of a sudden, the face of an ugly, bearded man flashed into my mind, telling me what a good job I was doing and that he was pleased with my progress in this 'game'. Sick fuck, he must have been the chief director, the mastermind behind this entire thing! Was he in everyone's mind? Nicholai experienced the same, so I guess he was. Mind control! This was the evidence we needed. Proof that the CSI corporation was brain-washing its customers into doing it's own dirty work, and that the directors were, literally, directing everything as if this was some kind of T.V show. But why did they have to kill inncoent people? Simple - they thought they were above the law, too powerful and too wealthy to be tracked and prosecuted. Mankind's bloodlust is inescapable, undeniable - its a part of us all and these guys had capitalized on that at the same time as fulfilling their own desires.

I ripped the new client from my head and slotted the old one neatly back into place. This CSI thing was huge, it had thousands of followers and untouchable directors - or so they thought. Now all I had to do was find the source of their mind-control abilities...

It sucked, to be honest. Its so gimmicky, and designed for newbies, so everything was laid out in ultra-simple steps that, at times, would have insulted the intelligence of a tapeworm. The client was dreadful. It didn't even look good, it was clunky and slow, poorly laid out and I never thought I'd say this, but I was desperate to get back into the old one.

Running around a place full of newbies isn't much fun either. One guy came in and asked the greeter "Where can I get a gun so I can shoot people like the guy did in the TV show?" and that just kinda set the tone for the whole thing. The CSI stuff in SL is a fad, a gimmick and I hate the stupid T.V show and everyone seems to love it. But I don't know how anyone could love the CSI stuff in SL.

Detective Esmie xXx

Saturday, 10 November 2007

Gothic Victorian

Nicholai and I were gonna be doing some kinda gothic victorian style RP - apparently he claims it is his 'speciality' - we spent a while looking for a suitable sim and found Dark Eternity (SLURL will come later) and we attempted some RP. But, the lag and the hostile environment (lack of buildings to sneak into and get down to business, and lack of rezzing abilities) coupled with his impending dinner date or whatever it was meant it was only a half-arsed effort and we decided to start again another day. So after Nicho logged off, I explored for a while and took a load of snapshots.

This is my favourite of me, the dark and mysterious Lord Posthorn, as well as my first attempt at a panorama - I read Torley's photo tips and from that I followed the link to how to make panoramas. I followed her instructions almost exactly. Some of the example ones she has are extremely impressive and I think that is mostly down to her use of Windlight, which I cannot wait for. So once I have that mine might almost be as good as hers.

This panorama is only using 28 of the 64 snapshots I took of the lake in the centre of the city park. Its far from perfect - I blame much of the crappyness on the stupid Linden trees, they always look awful - or finished but I am pleased with the way it came out - altho if I make it much larger the pc will run out of memory *lol* but I can't wait to do something a little more impressive.

Esmie xXx

Saturday Morning

Thats right now! Bill Bailey last night was absolutely brilliant, one of the funniest stand up live comedy shows I have seen for a long, long time. On a par with Lee Evan's XL tour in terms of quality at least, maybe not in quantity :)

On the way back my ear started to hurt quite badly - like it had 'popped' and was now full of something. It hurt - a dull, constant pain and I couldn't hear properly out of it, and basically I couldn't sleep while it persisted. So yeah... I stayed up til 5:30am when the oil Scottie Menges had suggested finally sunk in and cleaned it out. My God, what an awesome feeling when my ear suddenly went *whoomp* and I could hear again and there was no pain or anything! However, it still feels like it might go back to that state at any time, especially when I yawn or chew or something. Should be fine tho.

Now all I have left to deal with is the blocked nose and dry, tickly cough which shouldn't be too hard... I hope!

You can also probably guess I made it back from Glasgow ok, without being mugged, murdered or molested - as Syd said, 2/3 ain't bad ;D

Esmie xXx

Friday, 9 November 2007

Friday Night

Thats tonight! I will be off to see Bill Bailey at the Glasgow SECC. We leave our place around 3.30pm and head to Waverly station before catching a train for the hour long journey to Scotland's other great city. This is my first trip outside Edinburgh since I arrived in Scotland (which was well over 2 years ago) and the reputation of Glasgow is not a particularly pleasant one. But I think my bf is even more worried about it than me - its not Baghdad for God's sake! : /

Even so, late friday night, in the most dangerous city in western Europe (It has more murders and a higher number of drug users than London, with a population less than 1/10th of London. Thats not per 1,000 either, its actual numbers), with me feeling pretty rotten - I'm at about 70% physically - and it will be cold, so gotta wrap up extra warm - and we will be using the underground train network. Honestly, I have used the London Underground late at night with just one friend with me and it was terrifying. Everyone looks like a murderer or a psycho or worse at that time of night. Now we're gonna be in Glasgow, and most people in Scotland look like murderers, psychos or worse at noon in bright sunlight on a warm summer's day. Hopefully I will survive :)

Should be a great night tho, but I hate to think what it will do for my recovery from what we are now pretty much agreed on is some kind of horrible flu bug. So I wont be around tonight, but I will hopefully get some time on here saturday, depending on whether my illness gets worse again or not.

Oh yes I posted an RP session from last night between Nicholai and myself on the Nekoboiz blog. Its full and unedited apart from correction of typo's and removal of the little OOC bits we sometimes have to do. Basically I'm a human hunter tracking a cute little neko savage boy through some jungle. Its hot and steamy and intense and I hope you enjoy it :)

Esmie xXx

Thursday, 8 November 2007

What the hell is wrong with me...

I still feel like crap. I can't remember the last time I was this ill for this long - and it's not even flu or a cold or anything, just a bunch of random afflictions have crept up on me one by one.

Monday night - high temperature, sore throat, exhaustion
Tuesday - feverish temperatures, aching shoulders and back
Wednesday - shoulders and back got worse, throat now fine, but had a serious headache
Thursday - Really bad throat and a dry cough, back and shoulders getting worse gradually
Friday (tomorrow) - the idea of a 7am start and then getting the train around Glasgow all night doesn't fill me with much confidence for the weekend.

Tonight I went outside for the first time since Monday night. It was so cold even though I was wearing my warmest jacket and scarf. I couldn't breathe properly after climbing the stairs back to the flat and I was shivering for ages.

Now, some people would just shrug this kinda thing off and get on with their lives. But for me it's a big deal. I haven't felt this ill since just before I went into hospital after being diagnosed with diabetes, and that was 8 years ago at least. I know I haven't missed this much school/uni time since that awful week and I am really praying I will be able to get back to uni on monday, fully cured and catch up with my work.

Maybe I should go to the doctor's, but that means a long trip on the cold, depressing bus, right back to the uni campus.

Anyways - what would I be getting up at 7am for on a friday? Computer labs at uni. If I don't get the three hours worth of work done then I'll have to spend any free time next week I have doing it. Yay :)

What could I possibly be doing getting the train to, and then around, Glasgow on friday? My bf, my roomie and me are going to go see Bill Bailey the comedian, live on his Tinselworm tour. Between us we own all of his DVDs and other shows and our expectations are high. The guys said they would push me in a wheelchair if necessary, I have got to go with them. But the plan is to go straight to the train station after my labs which leaves no time for a break or to catch my breath, and I pretty much guarantee we will end up running along a cold, dark street at some point. Not good for someone who feels as exhausted and drained as I do right now... just typing all this crap in here has tired me out, not mentally but physically. It never used to... maybe I should just go and lie in bed and not get out until monday or something. But that would be far too sensible :/

Oh yes and a big hug and congrats go to Chester & Gabe as well as Rasmus & Amadeo who got partnered recently! Yay! Go read Gabe's blog to get an insight into his thoughts and feelings on partnership and what it means to him - like all of Gabe's stuff it's beautifully written and you find yourself agreeing with every little bit of it... I wish all you guys much happiness blah blah blah - its all been said before, you dont need me to say it. Just know that I love all of you :)

*Pokes the rotting corpse of Chester's blog* You would think that at least he would post once a month. I guess he must be so caught up in the whirlwind of romance and building that he forgot all about his poor blog. Shame on you, Chesty!

Esmie xXx

Wednesday, 7 November 2007


It seems Jaho was not too happy being called a pansy. So sorry Jaho, I didn't mean to offend you.

*cough* pansy! *cough*


In lighter news:

[3:33] Tseenik Miles: So I guess Chester is experiencing mega technical difficulty

[3:33] You: yeah thats one way of saying it. I just say 'impotent' its quicker

Sorry to Chester. I just had to, it was too perfect. It was actually about Tseenik thinking Chester had poofed and crashed or disconnected, when in fact he had just gone and laid down on a log *lol*

Esmie xXx

A bit better...

A whole day of rest has sorted me out but I'm still not perfect. My shoulders are fucking killing me. I've never felt anything like it before - when there is a cold breeze on them, they hurt. When I roll over, they hurt. When I stand up, they hurt. When I lean on my right arm, my left shoulder hurts. But oddly when I lean on my left, the right doesn't hurt. Strange. Anyways, its painful as hell, feels like they are bruised all over but there's no sign of that. I'm taking another day off today, because frankly, I can barely lift my satchel let alone carry it around uni on my shoulder all day. Rest should do me good.

But, tonight my friends have been planning some ten pin bowling action with maybe some drinks afterwards. Sounds like fun, only I doubt I'll be able to lift the balls, and I don't fancy paying the admission fee only to sit and watch... We'll see how it goes...

Esmie xXx

Tuesday, 6 November 2007

Sick again. Dammit!

I left my place at 9am for uni yesterday, didn't get back in til 6.30pm (which is no worse than usual on a monday) however it was a warm morning and I didn't wear much. But it didn't last and by the time I was waiting for a bus home, it was dark and cold. Very cold. I spent about 15 mins shivering and when I got onto the relatively warm bus, the shivering didn't stop. At this point, my throat started to hurt and my body felt weak.

You can probably guess where this is going :)

Last night I was so exhausted I couldnt even carry the sheet off my bed and put it on the couch in the next room, it was too heavy :/

So yeah after a long, deep night's sleep I am feeling much better now, the aching that was all over my body is now just in my shoulders and upper back, and my throat is a whole lot better - at least it doesn't hurt to swallow anymore. Even so, I'm taking the day off uni today - My third this term! :o

So yeah. That was fun.

Other news... CNDG are totally rethinking the whole business, in that we will be concentrating on entire sim builds rather than rentals in future. The first step is to move stuff off Society Islands (namely our house, and Kat's I think) into Maupiti, then all the sims will be re-arranged and SI will become a sandbox, linked to Maupiti and Safe Harbour by a series of low-prim 'void' sims. Now, to me, void is the spaces where there are no sims, the areas where you see water but you cant go into them. But apparently, low-prim, traversable sims are called voids. I can't wait until all our places are linked together and we can all meet up and do our building stuff in our own dedicated sim :D

I'm no longer their concierge, and have been placed on the creative team, along with Makara, Simon, Nicholai and Chester. Its gonna be so cool!

Esmie xXx

Sunday, 4 November 2007

More Photoshop

I finally got Micah's stuff done. Check them out below ^^

I'm really glad he likes them, honestly it was the hardest profile pic set I've done and I kinda struggled quite alot with the general idea and direction. I was experiencing a creative block I think. But the second one, without text, the light on the face is a little harsh and over done, I'll be looking to cut back on that a bit if I get a chance - although stupidly I saved the lighting on the facial layer so changing it will mean cutting out the whole face all over again and starting on it from scratch...

Nicholai has given me the task of coming up with a super-duper front cover for Bandant, and I've taken a ridiculous number of snapshots of him in provocative nude poses, and this is my first effort at what is basically just an idea. I'll be adding some text to it tomorrow and so on, definitely need to cut out that bit of angular 'muscle' under the left armpit, and reduce the definition on the pecs - two people have already asked why he has boobs... >:/

Sooo that might on the cover but I doubt it. I love the shot but I have a few others that are also wonderful, just totally 'him' so I'll be working on those too, will keep you updated :)

Esmie xXx

Saturday, 3 November 2007

New Header

I mocked it up in about 30 minutes, just replaced the old me with a pic of the new me, added some sparkle and shading. I kinda like it, although it isn't perfect it will do for now ;D

Comments/opinions on it more than welcome :)

Esmie xXx

Friday, 2 November 2007

dirt issue #2 is out now!

Ask me for a copy, or alternatively you can find one in the vendor here.

(As long as it's been updated with the new issue, I have no idea how it works).

Chester did such an incredible job. I feel a bit guilty about being a little hard on him when I see how much work he put into it and how freaking awesome the result is. Os also did a fantastic job with his travel story :)

Looking forward to the next issue... the 'SEXXX' one :D

Esmie xXx

Nutz >_<

So I stayed in today and then... my bf and my flatmate did too so I didn't get much of a chance to get on the pc. Bastards!
Roomie is in the shower now so I'm having a quick look at my emails and stuff. The reason he's in the shower is that he's got a job interview with the Domino's pizza place down the road in a couple of hours.. and once he's gone off for that then I can have his computer all to myself! Mwhahahahaaha }:D

Oh no he's back from the shower...

Gotta go!

Esmie xXx

Thursday, 1 November 2007

Its Alive! :O

My baby is back posting on the Nekoboiz blog, with some good stuff actually so check it out. Proof that the lil old blog isn't quite dead yet ^^

I'm taking the day off uni tomorrow (friday) cos I only have a one-hour tutorial class and frankly, you'd have to be a fucking lunatic to rush your lunch and get a bus right across town (it takes longer than the class lasts sometimes) and then back again. So I'll be spending that time doing a fair amount of Photoshop work, unless I decide sitting on Boots beach is a better use of my time. Which sometimes it can be :)

Esmie xXx